I posted something personal on my tumblr. Jesse saw it and continues to blame me for the shit that’s going on in her life right now… I tell her that she shouldn’t and I’m getting yelled at for not moving on. What the fuck? She’s still blaming me so shit that going on right now and I’m the one that needs to move on… This is fucking ridiculous… They want me to stay away when Jess reblogged that “first person to break my heart” post. Apparently it’s my fault that SHE follows ME on not only twitter but tumblr too! Here we go again. Everything is my fault… Again!
I’m fucking sorry… i have no clue how many times i have to say it… like what the fuck… i know i seriously fucked up… just let it go and move on. stop bringing it up and stop making me feel like shit. If i see another post about how i fucked up and “ruined your life” apparently you are going to have no idea how much im going to regret ever meeting you.
Why the fuck do I miss you so much right now? Like was it cause of that dream I had last night or what??? I haven’t thought of you or anything for a since school started and all of a sudden I had that dream and I feel so empty. I thought I was fucking over you. I can’t go thru the pain of missing you again. This needs to stop.
I’m on the train and there’s this couple that’s standing in front of me and I keep flashing back to that day of the Boston bombing when I got so mad over nothing. I started thinking back I all the stupid thinks I did and I can’t believe I’m such a fucking idiot and put you thru all that pain. And if you read this don’t think that I’m not over you because I am but I still feel back and will never forgive myself for what I’ve done. I’m so sorry.
Because thats what people do… they leap and hope to God they can fly! Because otherwise, we just drop like a rock… wondering the whole way down…”why in the hell did I jump?” But here I am Sarah, falling. And there’s only one person that makes me feel like I can fly… That’s you.
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